It’s bizarre to think of exactly where I was a year ago, and to see where I am now.
I chose ‘now’ as my reference point, as today is the first day that I’ve not had to take any cancer related medications – I’ve finally weened off them, and the terrible sickness that I had has been consigned to history I hope.
Of course, I still get fatigued very easily and am about to look in to further ‘top up’ speech and physio therapy, and I’m still at the Christie every three months – but without wanting to jinx it, this is it I think, I am finally starting to feel more human again – yay!
For comparison, a year ago, I was admitted in to hospital due to this terrible sickness that I’d developed (at one point causing near-life-threatening levels dehydration, living off ice-pops). Additionally, I was in the middle of some very intensive radiotherapy. I don’t think that I’d seen the sky for a number of weeks at this point.
I’m finding that I’m in a much stronger head-space at the moment and am already looking in earnest at how I can give back to the system which continues to support me so well. I have people come up to me and they tell such personal stories – it’s genuinely humbling and they, along with my own learnings, really and genuinely do motivate me to aspire to learn more, to fundraise, to offer support and generally just ‘get the word out’ about the scourge of brain tumours.
I’ve also noticed a few positive personality traits that I think have magnified during this experience – I’d say that I’m definitely more perceptive, and less shy. Grab life by the bollocks, leave a big mark, be the best version of you that you can be as you only get one crack at it, and all that! 🙂
So there we go, yay!
Don’t go crazy thinking that everything is brilliant though – I stress that this is a long journey with many ups and downs. Nobody knows what will happen tomorrow and it would be, in my view, naive, to celebrate – I just see this as one of those positive milestones in life, that are to be made the most of!
Finally, I’m doing The Color Run on July 5th for my pals at The Brain Tumour Charity. Please support me if you are able x