OK, so I see no shame in admitting that I am finding today very difficult – and no, not because of “the usual” reasons that everyone has on a day like today; but more because amongst other things it’s kinda making me think about a few things that I’ve been happily supressing having thoughts about and making me all confused.

I was dealing with everything as just a normal day until about an hour ago and then suddenly quite a few things happened around me, few random people text and emailed me and whatnot and I’ve ended up working myself up and getting a lil upset.

All terribly cryptic I know, but I don’t want to go into detail at the moment whilst I’m feeling a bit raw, as no doubt it wouldn’t be as coherent as I would hope. Someone said something to me the other day which at the time pleased me – apparantly I’m like a rhino (no rude jokes please!) – basically tough outgoing exterior hiding a squishy inside. I was pleased to see that the perception of me being a jolly and happy individual had embodied itself so well and was relieved to think that my insecurities didn’t shine through to much – I don’t like troubling people with my worries and so happy and cheerful works well for me in social environments. Perhaps this blog will permit me to display a bit more of myself than I am confident in doing in real life. We’ll see.

Meh, anyways, I will see how this afternoon works out and whether anything good comes from it or not.

But no, I don’t want any valentines sweets, no I don’t want to come to valentines drinks, and no crazy lady, I do not want to read the 4 cards that you’re currently showing off about.